I’m just an angsty teen with a bad attitude. I don’t have any reason to be upset with you.

That’s what you’ve told Chris. I’d like to think that it isn’t true. For one thing, I’m not a teenager anymore. And the bad attitude, I just don’t understand.

At least, I think I don’t.

I’d like to think that I have more control over my emotions now than I did before. I guess the counseling

You don’t need to see her. You’re doing fine.

People are gonna treat you like you’re insane if you keep seeing her.

and medication

I don’t want you taking that medicine every day.

You’re gonna get addicted.

helped me out a little in that regard.

But whenever I’m around you, I feel my body tighten. The air grows thicker, hotter. I feel like I’m suffocating, and I can’t do anything to ease that feeling.

Am I afraid? Am I anticipating another argument?

Or is it some anger, some bitterness hidden deep inside me, waiting for an excuse to come out?

You’re so argumentative. Always looking for an excuse to fight.

Is all this my fault?